Tag Archives: Recovery

What I Have To Offer

I recognize that the words I tend to write are not encouraging in the traditional way of being encouraging. I have no solace to offer the world, no words of comfort. I have no consolation, relief, or any real, tangible succor. What I have to offer is the truth of my own experience. The truth […]

The Gift of Desperation

In AA we have this phrase we use, sometimes we refer to “the gift of desperation.” Meaning, that point of being so desperate that we were finally willing to do whatever it took to make changes, to try something new, to get better. It is the gift of desperation that brings us into the rooms […]

Celebrate The Hell Out Of It

One day it was summer, and the next day it was fall. The season transition was very abrupt this year. But apparently the weather is trying to bring summer back for an encore this week, ’cause it looks to be in the 80s again. That said, it’s autumn folks, and I am embracing it! Last […]

Burn It Down


Relapse is a Bitch

In the AA meetings that I have been attending lately, I seem to be hearing again and again about friends or friends of friends relapsing. Either this is happening more than usual, or I am more in tune to it than normal. When I hear that a close friend has relapsed, there is a brief […]

Even My Barbies Are Mean To Me

A REFLECTION ON BEING FOUR YEARS SOBER                   Yesterday I celebrated four years sober. I spent the days leading up to it, and even much of the day itself, thinking, “I don’t want to be sober today.”  Really, I do want to be sober. What I don’t […]

It’s Getting Harder Now

I have been reflecting lately on the process of recovery and sobriety, growth and change. In some ways, early sobriety was a lot harder than it is now, but in other ways it was easier. In the early days, there was a lot of day by day, minute by minute, wrestling with my addictive behavior […]