There is something unique to struggle that it can be at once a great bridge between people when solidarity is found in relating through similar hardships, but on the other extreme can make you feel terribly alone despite being surrounded and loved. There is such an individual nature to each of our particular sufferings, that […]

I frequently wake up in the middle of the night terrified that someone is standing over me as I lie in bed. Or convinced that someone is lurking in my doorway. Or leering from the darkened closet. Most often I freeze in those moments, held by some long-ago rule that tells me if I do […]

When it comes down to it, it is often the little things that get me out of bed in the morning. On Monday for instance, I had a badass outfit to wear. Seriously folks, that’s what ultimately convinced me to not snooze my alarm for the fifth time. I’m telling you, it’s joy in the […]

It has been a longstanding dream of mine that someone in my life would look at me and say, “Elyse, you are way too depressed and overwhelmed to be working full-time. Especially a stressful social work job. You should take a break.” This was the stuff of fantasies and daydreams. I had long, wistful talks […]

                                                                                   Photo by JJ Harrison, via Wikimedia Commons Morning sloughs off my shoulders: a rough […]

Photo by Jess Mann via Wikimedia Commons Shut tight, solid steel vault door, only no one knows the access codes. And you’re a maze even to yourself. It’s amazing how distant you can be, when all I am offering is love. It’s true, I’m sorry, my heart is like a diamond turning back to coal. […]

innocence [in–uh-suh ns] Noun 1. the quality or state of being innocent; freedom from sin or moral wrong. 2. freedom from legal guilt of a particular crime or offense. 3. simplicity; absence of guile or cunning; naiveté. 4. lack of knowledge or understanding. 5. harmlessness; innocuousness. 6. chastity. What does it mean to lose your […]