Category Faith

What I Have To Offer

I recognize that the words I tend to write are not encouraging in the traditional way of being encouraging. I have no solace to offer the world, no words of comfort. I have no consolation, relief, or any real, tangible succor. What I have to offer is the truth of my own experience. The truth […]

It’s Getting Harder Now

I have been reflecting lately on the process of recovery and sobriety, growth and change. In some ways, early sobriety was a lot harder than it is now, but in other ways it was easier. In the early days, there was a lot of day by day, minute by minute, wrestling with my addictive behavior […]

Twenty-Four Hours

There is something unique to struggle that it can be at once a great bridge between people when solidarity is found in relating through similar hardships, but on the other extreme can make you feel terribly alone despite being surrounded and loved. There is such an individual nature to each of our particular sufferings, that […]

December is Made for Heartache

Today my little sister would have been 22-years-old. Holy cow. It’s crazy to think about. Crazy that someone who was not around for very long can leave such a lasting impact. Surreal to imagine my toddler sister growing up and becoming a woman. My baby sister was just a little over one-year old when she […]

God Grant Me . . .

If I were more prone to sermonizing, or to giving speeches, or actually just to talking in general, I could give a whole long discussion on The Serenity Prayer. Because it is so succinct and memorable, and it’s all the prayer you ever need, right from the first word: God. Sometimes that is as far […]

Breathing

Some days I don’t have enough words. Rather, not enough time –energy– to sort the jumble in my head. Here is a prayer from a man who had many good words, Dietrich Bonhoeffer: “Morning Prayer” O God, early in the morning I cry to you. Help me to pray and to concentrate my thoughts on […]